things I forgot i knew

Everyone has bad days but that does not seem to make them any easier. Knowing that the next day could get better does not make a lousy day feel better. However, having several lousy days in a row does make a day that might have previously been categorized as mediocre feel like winning the lottery. I can only imagine how tomorrow will feel when I actually win the lottery. And by lottery I mean finally get a paycheck which brings me above the poverty line for the first time in, well, ever.

screaming may now commence

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long awaited updates

It seems I have been missed during my blogging hiatus - there were IMs, phone calls, emails, people knocking on my door, registered letters, the whole works just to see what was happening to Kesley Hair.* The thesis got totally finished and turned in and then I had nothing left to procrastinate so I took a break from blogging. Good news though, school starts Monday so there is plenty to procrastinate again - thank goodness.

Life has not been all that exciting and the feelings of pure bliss associated with finishing a Master's degree faded more quickly than I had hoped they would. In just a few days I will officially be employed in my first, truly full-time job. I add truly because I have been working more than full-time the last two years but it paid so little sometimes I feel like it didn't count.

My new favorite hobby is making lists of things I am going to buy with my first paycheck. Unfortunately, there are a lot of necessities that have been moved up the priority list and some fun stuff has been moved to the bottom but eventually I will get there. I have been considering personalized license plates but the reality is that I can't handle that sort of commitment so instead I have been shopping for new tattoos, good thinking, huh? I have vowed to take myself on a celebratory date to have a dinner where I don't even think about the prices. Then I am going to come home and do nothing the rest of the night because that is what non-students do. Speaking of things non-students do, sleep every night. I think I will go do that now.


* Okay there was only one IM asking about the blog but still, I am sure the rest of you were on the verge of missing me.

for the record

Want to know what is better after you have successfully defended your master's thesis?

EVERYTHING!

kesley hair: word ruiner

Usually the closer I get to any sort of intense culmination of work, the more nervous I get. And I don't want to jinx myself into a panic attack tomorrow morning but I am actually feeling okay about tomorrow. I don't know if it was the thai food, under-baked brownie, or the nap but I just feel ready to go rock this thing and be done with it. Yay for late-night confidence boosts!

On a totally unrelated note, I have a new hobby that I am really quite good at. My ears are finely tuned to recognize when people use the words gyped, jipped, gyp, etc. Why do so many professional media outlets insist on saying that? You got "gyped" out of a beer? No! You went to a bar where a bartender gave you a poorly-poured beer. I don't mean to go all lexicographer on you or anything but for the record, the cool kids don't use those words anymore. The cool kids decided genocide wasn't as funny, well, once they realized they were talking about genocide. Don't worry, you are good people, you just need a little vocab update and then you will be as good as new. I have plenty of other words I can ruin for you some other time.

so close

In a mere 25 hours I defend my thesis. I have been waiting for this day for what feels like eternity and now all I can think of it how badly I want it to be over. On a scale of 1 to "uh oh"
anxiety levels are at an "oh shit."

pure bliss

I was determined to kayak today despite it being overcast all morning. The water was so still and calm - it was perfect kayaking. Then the clouds got darker, it began to mist, then sprinkle, and eventually I was in a downpour. At first I was a little fearful that I would die from a lightning strike but it was actually kind of nice to just accept that I was going to be soaked and to take my time. By the time I got back to the cabin the clouds had moved on and now we have the most perfect weather ever. I kayaked a while longer and now I'm laying on the end of the dock listening to the water hit the shore and my ipod in the background. I know I have a bunch of edits waiting to be finished inside but I just cannot bear to go inside right now.

I love blogging but boy oh boy do I love blogging from the end of a dock when I am this insanely happy and relaxed.

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